Do you ever...

Do you ever know the answer in your head yet your heart doesn't understand?
Do you ever wish you could do it just one more time, regardless of the outcome, just to have that moment?
Do you ever think that if you can scream loud enough you might release the pain?
Do you ever ask WHY in your head?
Do you ever go over every detail, again?
Do you ever look at kids his/her age and wonder?
Do you ever look at kids his/her age and cry?
Do you ever look at kids his/her age and feel anger?
Do you ever wonder how you got through it?
Do you ever wish you hadn't?
Do you ever wonder how you'll get through tomorrow?
Do you ever feel guilty for smiling?
Do you ever have to pull over because the tears have blurred your vision?
Do you ever get to talk about him/her with someone who REALLY understands?
Do you ever feel thankful for knowing that kind of love?
Do you ever?