Sunday, June 15, 2008

Update

I realize that I haven't posted in what seems to be forever. Sorry.

I have had so many posts in my head that never found there way here. Now they're gone.
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My best friend just lost her grandmother.
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My other best friend and her family came to visit from California. For a whole week I had a two month old:)
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My 17 year old is now Dr. Jekyll and Ms. Hyde.
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Sometimes my grief and memories are like a butterfly that caught a breeze and float by so effortlessly and beautifully that all I can do is smile. Sometimes it hits like a truck manned by a reckless driver who doesn't care when and where he strikes. Lately its the latter.
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Three women in my bible study group are pregnant. They say its my water. I wish.
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I always read you're blogs, even when I don't comment or post.
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I want to buy one of these.
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I still feel like I'm in a fog a lot of the time. Remembering my moms words describing herself...I think it might be menopause.
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I love getting mail. I just do. Some of my recent mail treasures are souvenirs from Niobe, (Thank you, I love them!) surprise packages from Jen (Thanks, I love them too!) and letters from my nephews in California.
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I went to Sea World (yay!) and had heatstroke (boo!)
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My memorial garden looks like a miniature forest. I trimmed back my oregano and rosemary plants. I offered the trimmings to the neighbors and everyone wanted fresh oregano but no takers for the rosemary. I also got rid of three bags of morning glory vines that thought they owned the entire garden. They were thrown in the trash, their punishment for trying to choke out every other living thing in their path. I kept all the basil. Newly planted there are two mexican birds of paradise. One for my grandmother and one for my uncle. I was happy to see a hummingbird hungrily lunging at my bleeding hearts.
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A very sweet friend of mine is going through a very hard time and it makes my heart so sad for her.
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I have just introduced my children to Gilligan's Island. I rented the series from netflix. They love the show.
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I wish I could something that makes a difference.
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My husband and my six year old are playing their new wii game, Indiana Jones. I can hear them arguing and playing and can't tell which is the six year old.
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I miss my baby girl so, so much. And my mom too.

3 comments:

niobe said...

My oregano and rosemary (and basil and sage) are also growing like, well, weeds. I keep cutting them and freezing them, so I'll have herbs in the winter.

I'm so glad you liked the souvenirs.

Angel Mom said...

I like what you wrote about grief and memories. You described it perfectly.

I love Willow Tree figurines. I don't have that particular one but I do have a few of the angel ones.

It's great to see you posting again. (((Hugs)))

Carole said...

Ruby,
Thanks for the update. I'm so horribly behind it's shameful. I love the Willow Tree statues. We have an angel one at the cemetery for Joseph.

Thinking about you always.
~Carole