Sunday, August 24, 2008

My Little One

Little One was sick...again. It seems all too often that he has a fever. A cold=fever, cough=fever, teething=fever, you get the picture. It gets high too. His recent trip to the E.R. at 1:30 a.m. was with 104.9 and no symptoms and that was with Motrin. Yeah. They brought it down to about 103.8 and sent him home. No tests, nothing.

A few days later he had a follow-up with his Pediatrician, still had a fever, still no symptoms. A few days after that STILL no symptoms and a low grade fever. She sent him for a series of blood tests. Next day he had to repeat the tests so she could verify the results and see in what direction they were going. This time he has an ear infection. Relief, there's finally a reason for a fever.

Results are in, here's where it gets ugly...He is now referred to a Pediatric Hematologist Oncologist. It seems that because of the results of his blood tests it may be a virus (more than likely) but it could also be Leukemia. I felt as if she punched me with that word, I couldn't breath and I certainly couldn't swallow down the lump in my throat. It was the one year anniversary of my mothers death. Admittedly not knowing much about it, all I could think is that I could not lose him, not another one, not now. Yes, I do know that's jumping the gun but I wasn't using my perceptive powers of reasoning at the time.

There you go...I wasn't sure how or even if I should post this but it's done and now you know. I do believe that this is just a virus, a strange, rare one but just a virus. I pray everyday that it is. I haven't been able to discuss it with most of my real life friends but I could blog it...go figure.

*Updated to add: The results are in and he DOES NOT HAVE LEU*KEMIA! Thank you for your comments.


Tracey said...

Oh RUBY!! I wish I could put something other than a sad faced emoticon or my small words of worry and hope for you...

I know that nothing will make you feel better until you get the results back, but my godson was tested for leukemia when he was a preschooler and it DID come back that he was hyperglycemic and other things but not cancerous. Just a bit of hope to hold there...

My heart goes out to you. If you want to email me to talk about anything you can't talk to your friends about, you can.

mctrickyb @

Angel Mom said...

Oh, Ruby, how scary. When will you have the appt and when will you get the results? I know waiting is so very hard.

I'm glad to hear that more than likely it IS a virus. Sending prayers for only good results and that you will have peace as you await the results.

Angel Mom said...

I've been waiting for an update and finally scrolled down to see this. Not sure how long the update has been here but I'm relieved the results were negative.