Monday, March 15, 2010

Random Thoughts

"Little One" is playing (learning) soccer now. I love watching him practice and play.

Starting to come to terms with the realization that my soul mate and best friend is truly gone.

The days are getting warmer, reminding me just how heat-intolerant I am.

My health is not cooperating with me.

I often think of all my blogger friends and wonder how they are.

Wondering if I'm really where I belong or if this is just a part of my journey and I need to move on to my next destination. Not metaphorically speaking but referring to my literal geographical location.

Missing my little girl so much.

Missing her Dad and Grandma too.

Surrounding myself with friends and still feeling so alone.

Grateful for all my children...living and not.

Often overwhelmed.

Smiling and sometimes even laughing again. Laughing feels foreign.

I watched a stretch limousine struggle to turn the corner in front of me. As I turned to be sure it cleared my car, I looked past it and saw a homeless man asleep on the sidewalk in a cubbyhole. Life can be so unfair.

Had a great time last night.

Quote from: Madea's Family Reunion--
Aunt Myrtle: "We had a love so strong.. that is just seemed like we were one. I would get ready to tell him something and he would open his mouth and say the very thing, that I was fixing to tell him. And then. there were those moments when I would lay my head on his chest just to listen to his heart beat. And then one night. I realized that his heart beat, matched mine. I have had an opportunity that few people ever get on this earth. God has blessed me to share time and space with a man that he designed himself just for me. I've not only been blessed.. I have been divinely favored.
 
I have indeed been divinely favored.

3 comments:

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

Beautiful, Ruby.

niobe said...

Thinking of you. Life often does seem so unfair and, even surrounded by others, I feel alone.

msfitzita said...

Your love story is beautiful. Just beautiful.

ox