Wednesday, September 19, 2007

My Bad

My doctor said that my baby would not be born alive.

Then she said that if she was born alive, it would be for only a few breaths.

I asked if she could be put on a respirator ( or ANYTHING) to help her.

She said no.

She said that if I made them do that, it would only be further trauma to my baby and her few minutes (if that) of life.

She said she had ABSOLUTELY no chance of survival.

I couldn't further traumatize her.

Not with NO chance of survival.

I loved her too much.

After all, she was only 21 weeks and six days gestation.

Thankfully her doctor didn't feel the same.

5 comments:

niobe said...

It does seem so unfair that she never ever had a chance.

Tracey said...

That story was amazing... Hoping for a good development for little Amellia. And sorry that it can't be that way for all babies born prematurely.

LaughterThoughts said...

what an amazing story-- truly a miracle. our God is awesome... that something so small could have life.

Carole said...

I'm just so sorry...I wish that it could have been different.
~Carole

Angel Mom said...

I'm so sorry that your own story did not have the same happy ending.