Wednesday, September 19, 2007

My Bad

My doctor said that my baby would not be born alive.

Then she said that if she was born alive, it would be for only a few breaths.

I asked if she could be put on a respirator ( or ANYTHING) to help her.

She said no.

She said that if I made them do that, it would only be further trauma to my baby and her few minutes (if that) of life.

She said she had ABSOLUTELY no chance of survival.

I couldn't further traumatize her.

Not with NO chance of survival.

I loved her too much.

After all, she was only 21 weeks and six days gestation.

Thankfully her doctor didn't feel the same.


niobe said...

It does seem so unfair that she never ever had a chance.

Tracey said...

That story was amazing... Hoping for a good development for little Amellia. And sorry that it can't be that way for all babies born prematurely.

LaughterThoughts said...

what an amazing story-- truly a miracle. our God is awesome... that something so small could have life.

Carole said...

I'm just so sorry...I wish that it could have been different.

Angel Mom said...

I'm so sorry that your own story did not have the same happy ending.