Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My Husband, My Daughter, My Mom

I miss him so much! I love him so much! There's not a day, an hour that goes by that my heart doesn't bleed for him. It just wants to stop beating. It truly believes that the realization of the permanency of the situation will prove fatal. We were supposed to grow old together...



She would be eight. Still, I can't picture her as more than a toddler. As I struggle to keep the memories clear and the smells vivid, still, the pain doesn't fade. Gratefully though, the pain is less often and the love burns strong and bright as ever.



She had innocence and gentleness, kindness and love. She was honest and sweet. All that, with the strength and courage of a lion. A tangible blessing.

3 comments:

tracey.becker1@gmail.com said...

Love to you...

N said...

Love you. Am praying.

Angel Mom said...

Ruby, I don't know what to say. Just know that you are still in my prayers. ((Hugs))